after a few more dismal job interviews, i am about ready to cry. i can feel it building up inside of me. my mum says to just let it out, but i like to save it up until it gets really, really bad and then have a huge balling session. i know: that has to mean something. i like to be as "strong" as possible until it gets to be too much. it's nice to know that i'm not completely alone in this behavior ;)
i know deep down that i do this on purpose. a huge emotional purge is so much more gratifying.
i'm beginning to wonder why i went to college at all. i don't even qualify for jobs that pay 7 bucks an hour. oh, and btw don't mention plans to attend grad school. this is seen as an interference with prospective job(s). army here i come? i really am seeing my options shrinking, and there really could be worse things than the army. i've seen them in amsterdam...
in other news, i had lunch with my sister today and it was really nice to be able to talk to her without kids/other family around. it happens rarely, so it was by far the best hour of my day. even though she probably has no clue, i really look up to her. she's had some trying times, and she's still a really good person. i missed her a lot when i was in amsterdam.
it was 85 today. it felt sooooo hot. i'm going to die this summer (if i'm still here).
(i miss you).
